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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 06:23

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He resisted the act ,that day.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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We were not on the streets..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And i lived it daily.

So whats the point in blame.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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(And it was in our own minds.)

All the time i was locked up.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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Who then, do I blame.?

I could never make a relationship work though!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Can I fix a fridge leak myself, or should I call a pro?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

It was going to be , some day.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Can you name an example of bad parenting?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She wouldn,t have been !

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

This is soul school!.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She loved him until the end.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We all went to grammer schools

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She was in good health!

I think the readers, may guess!

But it wasn’t much.

Comes on , in middle age.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

My life is so biszare .

Im still living with it.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was 9 years of age.

He knew the spot.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

What did i know ?

But, we were locked up after school.

I will be 64.

She married twice! .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Was to survive, this bastard.

So, i spoilt her more .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

My family never makes their pension either.

Would this be the day?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

When she asked me how she looked .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I was very sick at this time too.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I waited trembling.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Why did i forgive my father ?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I said to her

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I don,t even have a pension.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was scared of men, in general

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Put me off passion for life!!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Ive learnt so much.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was seconnd youngest,

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I have no regrets .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

As i do to all so called friends.?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She found it foreign!.

One cannot live in the past .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I write beautiful poetry .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..